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30 November 2003

m u s i c box s u p e r hero [ i n e ] :: she's living; she's golden. says:
are you saying that cuz your my friend or do you really think she is not so hot?

you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake says:
i really think she is not so hot

m u s i c box s u p e r hero [ i n e ] :: she's living; she's golden. says:
okay

m u s i c box s u p e r hero [ i n e ] :: she's living; she's golden. says:
WE'RE HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake says:
YES

you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake says:
we are

m u s i c box s u p e r hero [ i n e ] :: she's living; she's golden. says:
we are just a tad too hot to handle ;)

you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake says:
of COURSE

m u s i c box s u p e r hero [ i n e ] :: she's living; she's golden. says:
OW OW ;)

you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake says:
lol

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Idioglossia
» So Fleeting, You Are.
[12:51 AM]

As with just about everything else these days.

Or maybe it's me.

Sometimes I wish nothing ever happened, and you left me alone in my merry way.

I have never felt so indecisive about so many things, even the petty. "This (grad) picture or that one?" "Glasses or contacts?" "Black socks or grey socks?" WHY DO I EVEN STOP TO CONSIDER THESE THINGS? THEY ARE SO PETTY. THEY WERE NEVER AN ISSUE OF DEBATE (TO MYSELF) BEFORE, SO WHY ARE THEY NOW? I've always known what I want and exactly how to achieve it, and abhorred indecision. It bothers me that I am unable to put into words what I want and be completely satisfied with those words in the sense that they honestly describe how I feel at the time.

Like now. NO ONE COMPREHENDS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IN THE WAY I INTEND FOR IT TO BE UNDERSTOOD, BUT I'M TRYING SO HARD TO HARD TO BE CLEAR AND DESCRIPTIVE, YET EVERY WORD IN THIS ENTRY SOUNDS SO VAUGE. I don't feel that I'm being misunderstood, but rather, I am unable to describe things as accurately as I want to.

Maybe it is simply my inability to do so, or maybe it is circumstance that limits me from doing so. OR MAYBE EVERYONE IS LISTENING, BUT NO ONE HEARS.

I should stop having coffee so late in the evening (Alex and I went to Timothy's just because I like Timothy's and they don't have one that's open after 10pm in Markham, because this town sleeps by 9). I can't sleep, and I can feel the neurosis setting in.

I could so go for another swim right about now (Ally and I went earlier this evening). Swimming makes me happy, or at least content and calm during the time which I am gliding along the surface of the water. I like being in motion, whether it is swimming or jogging or driving ridiculously fast to nowhere in the middle of the night when all the lights are green and you don't need to stop, or, even better, on roads where there are no streetlamps and no traffic lights and everything is dark and quiet except for the headlights and the cd spinning in my (or whoever else's) car. I think I like those ones more than the ones with green traffic lights all the time.

28 November 2003

My brain is fried and I can't think so feel free to think for me, fellow Java programmers.

The dilemma (a.k.a. my ASSignment):
Create a method, isPointInside, in BalloonClass which determines if a point is inside the balloon. Assume that a point is inside the balloon if it is anywhere inside the oval's bounding box. Modify UsePinBalloon so that it displays a single balloon in the centre of the screen. At half second intervals, display a series of up to 100 randomly placed pin objects. Use an array for the pins. Stop when one of the pins pops the balloon.

So here's my method in BalloonClass:

public boolean isPointInside ()
{
int boundaryX1 = iCenterX - (iWidth / 2);
int boundaryX2 = iCenterX + (iWidth / 2);
int boundaryY1 = iCenterY - (iHeight / 2);
int boundaryY2 = iCenterY + (iHeight / 2);

if (iPinTailX >= boundaryX1 && iPinTailX >= boundaryX2 && iPinTailY >= boundaryY1 && iPinTailX <= boundaryY2)
{
bIsPointInside = true;
}
else
{
bIsPointInside = false;
}
return bIsPointInside;
}

And this is my question: how does BalloonClass get iPinTailX and iPinTailY from the PinClass object (instantiated in my main program, UsePinBalloon)? My first instinct is to do a getPinTailX, getPinTailY BUT wouldn't that mean I'd have to instantiate a pin object in BalloonClass? And then I wouldn't be getting the PinTailX and PinTailY of the pin object in the main program???

It seems SOO simple but I can't think of it right now. =(

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26 November 2003

I didn't have class until period 3 today and it will be the same for tomorrow. I have a P.A. Day on Friday, but I might have a rehearsal (Festive Sounds on Monday, 7p, Markham Theatre). I also have a rehearsal tomorrow night. That's all I ever do nowadays, swim and rehearse.

We finally got those bloody password thingys to apply to universities online. GEEEEZ.

What else... I got 14/16 on a DM quiz yesterday. O_O THE END IS NEAR; I AM DOING FAR TOO WELL IN A MATH COURSE. MAYBE THAT'S A GOOD THING. However, I don't think this streak is going to last because I am so beyond lost in today's lesson (Normal Approximation of the Binomial Distribution). I did exactly as the lesson instructed, but my homework is not working out correctly. =*(

I have started to compile my Christmas list. It will be posted soon.

Ally and Alex are both coming back this weekend!!!

I am so slacking off in school. I have never slacked off so much (which may not be a lot for most people but it is the most for me) in my entire perfectionistic life. That is probably not too cool, considering I'm only DYING to get out of high school and into university.

I want to swim and play trumpet all day and not go to school. That way, I wouldn't ever miss the O.C. or have to watch it in mountain time.

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23 November 2003

Click for bigger pictures. :)
When it opens in a new browser, TURN OFF THE AUTOMATIC IMAGE RESIZER IN MSIE (mouseover until you see the square and then click it).

Don't I look mean in the second one? My mom was like "Wow you look uhmm bitchy." LOL. Oh me!

Oh and uhmm vote for which one you think I should buy (in the comments). I personally like the first one and the last one.

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21 November 2003

(Alex, are you ready for this?)

I paraded down the hall of an all-boys school (your alma mater!) in my swimsuit. OH YEAH. >;)

Its a long story. I needed to pee and there was this huge lineup in the changeroom. I hate it when people change in the bathroom, especially in today's situation. You KNOW you're going to a meet, you KNOW warmup starts at 8, so WHY DON'T YOU JUST WEAR YOUR SUIT THERE LIKE I DID? AND IF YOU HAVE TO CHANGE, WHY CAN'T YOU CHANGE WHERE EVERYONE ELSE IS CHANGING? I NEED TO PEE, YOU KNOW. [/Owen Meany voice]

So anyways, here I am missing warmup, waiting in the changeroom to pee and my coach found me and led me to a bathroom down the hall outside of the pool area and on the way, everyone's gawking and she's like "I know a secret bathroom!" then I guess she noticed everyone gawking and turned around and kinda stopped for a second and said "OMG I'M SORRY!" and I'm like "S'okay! ;)" and we're like laughing and stuff. Then I had to go BACK. I wish she'd told me ahead of time so I could at least go back and put on my shorts. But oh well. When you gotta go, you gotta go!

I swam in four events: 25m breast, 100 back relay, 50 free, and 25 back. Then I proceeded to get third place in the 25 back race. OH YEAH!!! ;) The asshole timers timed me HORRIDLY wrong in my 25 breast race and I came in dead last: 51 seconds. The next slowest time was 40s. I'm was pissed so I told my coach there was absolutely NO WAY I got 51s. My seed time was TWENTY FUCKING FOUR. WTBF!!!!!!! I finished with my heat pretty much (ie. I didn't lag severely behind, as my time, and the time before it, seemed to indicate). Fucking hell. Since it was a manual timer (the slappy timer things on the wall were on the OTHER wall 'cuz it was only 25m), and no one on my team managed to time me, I had to take the nastyass 51s and come in dead last. BOOOURNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:6

Some of our relay teams ROCKED, but not mine. LOL.

GO BLACK INK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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19 November 2003

You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.


What Matrix Persona Are You?
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17 November 2003

This weekend was fantastic! MFOS show Friday (shot two rolls of film), hut party at Jono's on Saturday (awesome as always), NLS on Sunday (got the brick 3 times! I just need it to break the surface now. GRRR).

I am so busy this week, but I am not complaining. Not until I get to the weekend anyway, which will unfortunately be spent catching up. Wanna hear about my week?

Sunday: NLS 2-6.45p

I'm so scared I'm gonna forget to wake up on Friday.

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11 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» Tinamonster: "MEEHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!"
[09:23 PM]

I hate procrastinating but it is so easy to do.

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Webbyness
» Combinatorics Suck 'Cuz We Said So!
[06:58 PM]

Steve, you have NO IDEA how many things I do out of spite. ;)

I can't stop smiling and only Ryan knows why, but he's not going to tell you 'cuz he's a CHAMP!

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9 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» SLOOOOOOOOOOOOO-AAAAANNNN!!!!!!
[08:47 PM]

Friday was so unbelievably incredible. We (Alex, Lia, Ryan, Sam, Kuba ,and I) went to see Sloan at the Kool Haus. It was definitely one of the top three shows I've ever been to; I haven't been able to place it exactly yet. Probaby even 2nd (after GGD) 'cuz Weezer was really great but its not the same without your friends, standing in a cold hard plastic seat of the Molson Ampitheatre (mind you that was so very extremely spiritual for me too; shut up and stop laughing) but a club venue just can't beat a bigass stadium type thing. Y'know?

I almost died of hypothermia before we even got into the Kool Haus (*cough* WAREHOUSE!!! I hate the name "Kool Haus"; its so uncool. *cough*). We all decided to be cheap and left our jackets in Kuba's car and ran to the lineup. My teeth started chattering as soon as I stepped outside without my jacket. We ran to the lineup and got into a big group hug and I was nearly dead so Amalia and I rotated her hoodie on 10-minute shifts. But anyway. We finally got in and I bought the COOLEST SHIRT EVER.

BOOYEAH. A hawt shirt for a hawt girl like myself. ;) Tomorrow is Sloan Shirt Day so I will be sporting that if you see me around.

I saw some Datsuns swag at the merch booth and I freaked 'cuz I thought the Datsuns were opening but they weren't so I calmed down. The High-Dials were still veeery cool. There were a few songs that had a nice latin-y feel (score!).

FINALLY Sloan came onstage and they played an AWESOME set with three encores. It was also Chris' birthday so we all sang "Happy Birthday" and someone threw a bra onstage (champ)! They opened with the first two songs off the new album Action Pact and they played quite a bit off stuff off that disc, as well as lots of old stuff. I almost CRIED (I'm not joking. CRY as burst into tears) when they started playing "Coax Me" and I freaked when they played everything else. It was so great. I didn't even notice I knew all the words to all of the songs except for one (I only knew the chorus... boourns!) but I noticed that everyone else was just STANDING there like logs, unmoving, unsinging, and just O_O. I'm thinking "GEEZ GET WITH THE PROGRAM. ITS SLOOOOOOAN!!!!!"

For the encores, Chris came back out by himself with the manager and right away I KNEW they were gonna play "Deeper Than Beauty." And of course they did. And I was sooo happy I was singing along at the top of my lungs so I guess I was half-screaming pretty much and I also guess that I'd been doing that throughout the whole set so by the time they'd finished 3 encores and we'd all reunited everyone laughed at Lia and I because we sounded like Munchkins. It was so morbidly funny.

So yes. That was Sloan and it was very very excellent!

Last night I saw Revolutions with Ally and Janette. I cried, but I won't say why in case you haven't seen it yet. Ally brought me back a Sloan sticker from the UW show because she is so hip and with it. ;)

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5 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» Seaweed is Addictive
[07:32 PM]

I got a Neo button/pin thingy today! Jon (from my World Religions class last year) works somewhere where they're promoting the Reloaded DVD and I saw him with the Neo button and an Agent Smith button on his bag so I'm like "Can I PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEE have the Neo one? =)" and he's like "sure" and i'm like "YAY!!!!!!!"

Oh, the little things in life make me so happy.

Stolen from Len:

Last car ride: from the car fixing up place to the library then home.

Last kiss: I don't kiss and tell ;) ((EDITED @ 9:58p; forgot to change previous answer. its right now!))

Last good cry: in the summer

Last library book checked out: a book about Lewis Hine and child labour for my World Issues seminar

Last movie seen: uhmmm..... its been a while... Grind (with Adam Brody!), I think.

Last book read: The Hotel New Hampshire by John Irving.

Last cuss word uttered: I don't think I've sworn today. WOW. Maybe a "fuckin'" somewhere.

Last beverage drank: V8, baby!

Last food consumed: seaweed (consuming now, actually)

Last crush: D.A.B. >;)

Last phone call: Dad

Last TV show watched: CSI on Sunday

Last time showered: about 20 minutes ago

Last shoes worn: my Roots Tuff boots

Last CD played: One Chord To Another by Sloan (FRIDAYYY!!!!!!!)

Last downloaded: "Minerva" by Jan Van der Roost (we're playing it in band... extremely spiffy!)

Last annoyance: my nose is flaking but my forehead is breaking out. Why can't my skin just DECIDE if it wants to be dry or oily? Or better yet be NORMAL for once!

Last disappointment: DM test

Last soda drank: I haven't had pop in a while. I stick to water and V8.

Last thing written: CS pseudocode

Last key used: my car key when I drove the car to the garage to get fixed

Last word spoken: "okay"

Last IM: Alex

Last weird encounter: ((EDITED @ 9.58p; forgot to change previous answer, its right now!)) talking to ppl that I haven't talked to in like 3 years. its crazy.

Last ice cream eaten: Rum and raisin

Last time amused: when I played w/ Jones' shrinky globey thing yesterday (does ANYONE know what i'm talking about? Its a globe made up of multicoloured plastic joints and it grows and shrinks when pulled. VERY trippy.)

Last time wanting to die: I can't remember when

Last time in love: Earlier this year

Last time hugged: I can't remember either

Last time scolded: all the time. the perils of being a rebellious only child.

Last time resentful: probably earlier today

Last lipstick used: Blistex Berry Explosion

Last underwear worn: La Senza!

Last time dancing: ... never?

Last poster looked at: ... can't remember

Last show attended: Warped Tour (its been a while!). SLOAN ON FRIDAY!

Last webpage visited: my dailies! (Alex, Steve, Ally's blog; undisclosed url, Kate, Cam, Len).

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4 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» FINITO!
[04:45 AM]

The project/ASSignment due tomorrow later today is done and I can still fit in about 2 hours of sleep. My eyeballs are about to fall out of their sockets and my head hurts. Bah.

Yumminess at 5 am (or any time for that matter).

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3 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» My Mom is Cool
[10:29 PM]

I got my awful DM test on perms and coms back today and I got a nasty 63%. KILL ME NOW, and don't lecture me on "Well, that's better than what I got" 'cuz you know what? IT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. I intend to get somewhere in life on my own, not by freeloading off any and everyone. SO THERE. I AM ANGRY AND PISSED OFF AND I HATE MATH. HAAAAAAAAAAATEEEE!!

"Don't be hatin'!"
*BITCHSLAP*
I'll hate whatever the fuck I want to hate, dammit.

So anyway. A huge part of my DM cumulating project is due tomorrow so I'm gonna pull an all-nighter. My mom was so cool she bought me a bunch of fob snacks for brainfood. WOOT!

I NEED FRIDAY TO BE HERE NOOOWWWWWWWW.

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2 November 2003

Life or Something Like It
» I'm Gonna Get My Way, UH HUH!!!!!!!!!!!
[07:32 AM]

I'm always so tired. I am immune to caffeine now; it does nothing for me in terms of keeping me awake. My head is pounding and there is no reason for it to be so. It is rather uncool to feel hungover when you are not. =(

This weekend has been awesome. Hallowe'en party at Jones' (Evil Dead trilogy, a foiled plant to scare Russ that was hilarious in any case, my bigass purple M & M, and just an all-around good time!), shadow guarding, and Ally M.'s birthday dinner thing (all you can eat sushi and bubbletea, both of which I haven't had in a while, getting lost going to Commerce from Leo's "Where are you?" "Err... past Bathust and Hwy 7..."). I knew something was wrong once we got to the stretch of Hwy 7 that's freewayish. "It shouldn't be out this far!" LOL!

I <3 the new Dashboard stuff. 'Cuz its SO GOSH DARN COOL, y'know?

Part of my hugemongous DM cumulating project is due on Tuesday. I don't want to do it, but it would be ideal (I can't believe it's not butter I said that... I would hardly consider myself an idealist) to finish it RIGHT NOW since I have NLS this afternoon so I'm going to be dead tired and tomorrow night I have swim practice and jazz. I HATE DOING WORK ON WEEKENDS, Y'KNOW? >=(

Why am I up at 7:30 on a Sunday morning? The question should actually be why I've been up since 6 on a Sunday morning. (CS hw... nerrrrrdy!)

Sloan next Friday: DANCEDANCEDANCE TO THE RAYYYY-DEEE-OHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

People are using the comments more now. Good stuff! =)

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