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31 October 2004

Thursday: had a hissy fit about school and life and stupid shit like that. I'd been all down and crap about it for a week or so, but Thursday was just the culmination of everything because I had time off to do research at the library and ponder in general. For those who don't know, I'm doing horribly in French (like a C at best, which is a shock since I had mid-eighties in French throughout high school) and it just got to the point I considered dropping out of school altogether, not because of something dumb like me flunking French, but because I don't know if I want to study IR or ANYTHING for that matter. I'm doing IR now because I've got to do something: I'm not the type to take a "wide breadth of courses" and decide on what I like later, because I'd just rather focus all of my energy on one thing and get it done. On the flipside, I'd make a nice chunk of money teaching swimming and guarding full time, and I like being at the pool. I called my mom and she told me I was being silly because if I'm going to worry this incessantly, then lots of other people ought to be too, and they're obviously not, so I must be overreacting. For once, it's me and not her. I still don't want to do anything though (in terms of what to study). This is different from me not knowing what I want to do; please read into that.

Later that evening was the Hallowe'en Party, during which my teen angst (you'd think I'd fucking grow out of it eh?) was temporarily suspended and I just had a hella good time, thanks to our (Laura and I) pre-party and everyone's excellent costumes.

Friday: went to see "The Ghosts of Metropolitan" at Metropolitian United Church (which houses the largest pipe organ in Canada) with Alan, Ama, Simon, Immy, and Jenny. Alan's friend who's studying Organ Performance here at UT (not Trin though) was playing so we all went to see him. I had a blast. Getting there was gruelling (walking in the rain for about half an hour... yuck!) but I thought it was so worth it (the others may have thought differently since I was the only one who had an umbrella and boots). I've actually competed in a festival or two at that church so it was neat being there again. They had tons of candles and turned the lights down really low and the Reverend read excerpts from Shakespeare's Macbeth and Dickens' The Chimes in a grim reaper costume and a mask like the dude in Scream. It was PRICELESS. I was particularly excited about hearing Chopin's "Sonata Op. 35: Marche funèbre." Then Ama and I stayed up superlate and had soup and tea those Hallowe'en sprinkle doughnuts from Tim Horton's and talked forever.

Saturday: worked ALL DAY on my fucking POL assignment (I'm still working on it... ugh!) and then Alan, Simon, Christina and I watched Van Wilder. Then Alan and I watched Six Feet Under. Then Ama came back from her babysitting gig and we were on the phone and we decided to conference call Alan and order a pizza. We got the pizza, went back to Alan's, and watched more Six Feet Under because it's about dead people and it's Hallowe'en and we love it and just find excuses to watch it all the time. Ama and I ended up crashing at Alan's because it was 5am and we were tiiiiired.

Today: still slaving over my POL assignment whilst listening to Pilate, whom I adore. This assignment is just not writing itself. I used to be able to shit on command.

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29 October 2004

Costumes:
Ama: Sylvia Plath (the oven is our brainchild!!!!!!!!!)
Laura: lifeguard/Yasmine Bleeth (don't you see the resemblance?!)
Zara: Luci (girl Lucifer!)
Ice Man (does anyone know his real name?): Abraham Lincoln
Simon: John Wilkes Booth (assasinated Lincoln)
Me: Trinity
Aaron: Neo (a HUGE coincidence but a cool one nonetheless!)
Aaron's friend Mike from McGill: mad scientist
Brian: lifeguard
Alan: dead Elvis (he lost his Elvis mask, haha!)
Will: I think he was a firefighter?
Christina: mouse
Jia: French maid
Immy: Tinkerbell
Jenny: princess

Highlights of last night!

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26 October 2004

Disclaimer: In all honesty, I think hate crime laws should be abolished altogether. Crime is crime. It shouldn't make a difference if a murder victim is black or white, gay or straight, male or female. The fact remains that a crime (murder) has occurred, and this crime must be punished accordingly.

At lunch today, people pseudo-intellects (I say this not to be rude, but really, they were whining and not backing up their opinions) were talking about same-sex marriage and how to be fair it should be (as it is in Ontario now) legalized. Now, I don't claim to be an intellect in any way, but I think I can say I'm at least less ignorant. It annoys me to no avail when people justify things as "Well, it's just not FAIR!" Well you know what hun, you have to say WHY THE FUCK it's unfair. Otherwise, bugger off.

The discussion eventually turned into one about hate crimes and sexual orientation, at which point I rattled on and on about why sexual orientation shouldn't be protected under Canadian hate crime laws for three reasons (I did a debate on this for my World Politics last year, so I was all worked up and stuff, ha.):

1. By classifying a crime as a "hate" crime, thought itself becomes criminalized. All crime is bad, regardless of intent.
2. Freedom of Religion is a fundamental freedom (of Canadians, and under the UNCHR). Protecting "sexual orientation" would violate that fundamental freedom as people preaching against homosexuality could be convicted of hate crimes.
3. The American Psychiatric Association classifies pedophaelia and sadism as sexual orientations instead of disorders (as they were previously). By protecting "sexual orientation" under hate crimes, pedophiles and child pornographers would be protected.
4. There is no epidemic of hate crimes, nevermind hate crimes based on sexual orientation. In 2001, just over 1% of all crimes reported in the US were hate crimes based on sexual orientation (statistics here).

I find this topic fascinating because on the surface, most people (in my high school politics class and my peers anyway) would find it quite cruel to not protect sexual orientation under hate crime laws, but upon further analysis, I found it harder to find reasons to justify it than to refute it. Funny how things are like that.

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22 October 2004

I so owned that bloody midterm like it was nobody's business. While studying, I found an error in an old test and an error in the problem set. I have also become an elasticity queen; power to me! I was disappointed because the two full solution questions were suppy and demand and the only thing on elasticity was one of the 5 multiple choice questions. But alas, I love economics right now. However, that may change next week (e.g. when I get my test back).

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18 October 2004

Ecomonics Everything just stops making sense after a while.

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17 October 2004

0T5 Red Light District Party:

Friday @ Einstein's:

Recently/Currently:
Reading - Eksteins' Rites of Spring (for my Global Governance seminar; very neat)
Music - Jamie Cullum, Marilyn Manson, Badly Drawn Boy
Economics - test this Friday up to and including Elasticity *stabs self*
Drinking - lots of tea. I'm being weened off coffee
Eating - Caf cookies. It's all you can eat here. At MSS these would've been $1 a pop, so I stuff my face with like 5 cookies after lunch every day.

Coming up:

Silver Lyning @ The Kathedral November 27, 2004

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6 October 2004

Life or Something Like It
» Economics
[11:35 AM]

I don't understand it at all and I greatly dislike it at the moment.

By the way, Eric Lindros goes to my school. He's ECO 100 too, but in Julie's section.

I've had an awful night's sleep (woke up every hour and a half or so) because they turned the heat on and the radiators won't shut the fuck up. They're continuously moaning and groaning, like something that's dying or about to give birth.

This morning there was no hot water. The maids are on strike or something; my garbage hasn't been taken out for over a week and there's been no paper towel in the washroom for a day or two now. This is what I get after paying $10 000 a year for 8 months? GEEZ!

Well I guess there are perks to living here, like the nine Group of Seven originals in the Rigby Room (a fancy-ish common room in SHC). They're SO gorgeous!

I never thought I'd say this but I really want to go home. It's not that it always sucks here, it's just sucking pretty terribly the past few days.

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3 October 2004

Life or Something Like It
» Doorstopper
[03:31 PM]

I need a new doorstopper. My green dinosaur one cracked under the pressure today (no pun intended). =*(

I'm sick, but I'm getting better.

I have lots of work to do.

Copeland's "Fanfare For The Common Man" (which I am listening to at the moment) totally owns. We (myself, Ryan, Brennan, Lem, Sugar, and Janet) played it for our GIPP this past June.

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1 October 2004

Life or Something Like It
» Sue Thomas F.B.Eye
[11:07 AM]

The trailers have been here on Devonshire since about 2am this morning. Apparently, they're filming here today from 7am-11pm and around Toronto for this season.

Pilons on Devonshire Place.

Devonshire and almost Bloor. See the trailers?
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Commencement was a lot better than I'd expected. It was kinda nice seeing people from high school again, except a lot of people weren't there. I still think this should have been at the end of June as opposed to the end of September.

I got to talk to my Grade 12 English teacher (who is a Trinity alumnus) and we were talking about the Cakefight and the Steeplechase and all that jazz. Everything's essentially the same except for Pouring-Outs: we take those outside now. =)

Other than that, "high school" is the new "pedestrian." They neglected to mention me under the Peer Tutoring Club section (it's ridiculous because I actually have a letter of reccommendation from them) and they received their Queen Elizabeth II Aiming for the Top winners list late and so they just read our names because it didn't make it into the programme.

Don't even get me started on all things "valedictory." Contrary to what some presumably intelligent people proclaim, it is actually NOT "democratic" when you make sure the grade 12 period 1 vocal class gets nomination ballots but not voting ones and are not given instructions on how, where, or when to obtain voting ballots.

I did not enjoy high school in terms of the administration, the so-called SAC ("democratic" my ass, piece of shit), and all the other assholes I've vented about and lamb-basted over the past four years or so. I did enjoy high school in terms of all the awesome people I met and worked with and the wise teachers (none of the other ones though... *seethes*) who taught me, if not well, then well enough.

And so it goes. Fare thee well high school, I most definitely will not miss you.

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