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30 October 2005

This place has gone to shit. Being busy has never stopped me from writing, but realizing I was simply reguritating the things I've been doing as opposed to what I've been thinking about did.

The past three weeks have been insane, factoring in physical, mental and emotional exhaustion (not to mention alcohol and drugs, prescription and otherwise). Now that it's finally all behind me I can start to think a little more.

I've overextended myself and I'm considering of dropping out (again). Thinking, that's all. I hate trying to figure out what I want to can do in three years that I am so distracted from just trying to keep my marks up, which isn't happening despite my best efforts.

As much as I love studying IR, I don't share in the idealism of the UN nor do I plan on pursuing a career of diplomacy. I particularly dislike how political science is so nuanced that there are exceptions to EVERYTHING. I like how economics can explain market phenomena, even though most of the models I'm dealing with are so simplified that they really don't reflect the real world, but I dislike numbers. I love the idea of coding (particularly how it's so bloody binary), but I also love spending money and I don't think, for me anyway, that the two would happen together.

Learning for the sake of learning: I guess it's dead like I thought it was.

Echoing the famed Ms. Carrie Bradshaw: Hope is a drug I need to get off of.

Whatever happened to Third Eye Blind, folks?! Music just has NOT been the same since the late 90s.

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